Thursday, December 2, 2010

It's getting hard

So I don't think I have complained too much during my pregnancy, my husband might disagree but I think I've pretty much just dealt with it. Now that I'm just 32 days away from my due date, I feel like complaining. This week it has started to feel like the muscles at the top of my giant stomach are ripping apart. It literally feels like at any moment there is just going to be a huge rip right below my boobs and Jackson is going to start waving at me. I have heartburn pretty much constantly from about 4pm until I go to bed, regardless of what I eat. I cannot sleep, I either have to wake up to pee constantly (last night it was literally 5 times in 2 hours) or I get leg cramps that I have to stretch out. I have also started having these sharp pains in my legs/hips. It's not in the back but in the front and down my leg. It makes me limp which makes all 23 of my students and many of my colleagues ask "what's wrong". Since I'm in pain it's really hard not to respond "LOOK AT ME, I'M ABOUT TO EXPLODE. WHAT DO YOU THINK IS WRONG?" I usually just say something like, "I'm okay" or "he must be moving around today". Today I did lose my poise a little when a substitute said "wow you got big really fast" I said in a very flat tone "I'm due in 32 days, I'm 9 months pregnant, I did not get big fast" and shut my classroom door!

A friend of mine recently blogged about how hard it is to be a new mom and took some heat for it, so just to clarify: I'm so thankful that I was able to conceive and carry a child to full term without any complications. I cannot wait to meet my son and see what he looks like, I'm thrilled to add a baby to our family but being pregnant is hard. There is truly no way to understand what it's like until you have done it.

I would post a picture but I can't bring myself to. It is truly unbelievable that I look like this. I really appreciate my lying friends who keep telling me that I look cute and that I don't even look pregnant from the back. That's what friends are for!


  1. Awwwww, don't be so hard on yourself! And you have every right to complain a little. After all, you've been carrying the little guy around for 9 months and the actual "labor" has yet to come!
    Sorry, didn't mean to seem like "Debbie Downer" there, but on a lighter's ALL worth it!!! :)

  2. Sister..the end it near. Yes it is HELL. I won't shoot sunshine up your butt. I love that you too are truthful about the realities of pregnancy. Keep complaining away. Always here to listen and to take a trip down memory lane with you. : ) I can't wait to see that baby boy!!!!!!!