A sleep tale

Last night was terrible. Jackson went to bed at 8 and then he was up at 9, 9:45, 12, 2, 3, 3:30 and 5! At 3:30 I decided to try and let him settle himself so he was crying. Keith shakes my arm and says "the baby's crying". It was really funny to me. Like maybe all of a sudden after 3 months of answering every little sound I couldn't hear him wailing through the monitor. I responded that I had just been in there and I was giving him a few minutes to settle down to which he said,
"maybe he's cold". Now I don't know about anyone else but I'm not that agreeable at 3:30am so I said, "you're welcome to go in there and check". Obviously my husband was awake since he was talking to me, why did he need to wake me (or think he was waking me) instead of going to investigate on his own?

Which reminds me of a conversation I was having with my friend Christine the other day. We both said that when we're home with husband and baby, or two babies in her case, that we'll say, "I'm going to go to the bathroom, kitchen, whatever watch the baby". But neither of our husbands do the same. They are free to leave the room at any time without making sure someone is watching the baby. Now in reality I'm sure neither of our husbands would let the babies play with fire or stop breathing if we didn't remind them but it just struck us both funny that as moms we feel that we need to constantly have the responsibility of caring for the baby while the husband doesn't.

I don't want to give anyone the wrong impression, Keith is very helpful with Jackson and I've never asked him to get up in the night because I'm breast feeding and there's not much he could do anyway.

3 Months

Jackson was 3 months old on March 28. I've been a little busy so this post is late. At 3 months he can grab his toys, pacies, and Mama's hair any time he wants! He loves to splash in the tub. He still usually only naps for about 30 minutes at a time but he sleeps well at night. He usually goes to bed around 8 and sleeps until about 3.

He didn't go to the doctor at 3 months so I just weighed him on a home scale with me. He weighed 13 pounds! He's quite a little eater.

one month
two months


three months

Jackson had no smiles for me on this day. He looks like a brooding little teenager! I can't believe how fast my baby is growing :)

Who I am

I am.....real.


I want... to sell my house and buy a new one.


I have...the most beautiful baby and best husband.


I wish...I didn't have to work and I could stay home with my baby.


I hate...stupidity in all forms.

I fear...cats and birds.


I hear....dogs barking most of the time.

I search...for humor in all of life's moments.


I wonder...what Jackson thinks of the world.


I regret...nothing! Every moment up until now has lead to be who I am and I love my life.


I love...my son more than I thought I could ever love anything.


I ache...only when I wear heels.


I always....try to follow my dad's advice and not sweat the small stuff.


I usually....have dishes in the sink.


I am not...very patient with adults. I have lots of patience with children but not with grown ups.

I dance...like a nerd. I'm not a very good dancer so I usually only dance in my house and Keith usually laughs.


I sing...in the car all the time. I'm not very good at this either but I put on my Glee CD and sing my heart out.

I never...step on man hole covers.


I sometimes...plan out what I would do if I won the lottery, even though I rarely buy a ticket.


I cry...more now that I'm a mom, but still very rarely.

I am not always...sympathetic. It's just not something I was blessed with and I think I might hurt people's feelings sometimes.


I lose...receipts like it's my job.

I am grateful...for my happy, healthy family.


I need...a dog trainer.

I should...learn to give people a chance. I usually make a decision on whether I like someone within 10 seconds of meeting them. I used to say that I "hated someone until they gave me a reason to like them". I'm better about that now but I still have work to do.

Thanks Melissa

Jackson's chair came in the mail yesterday. On a related note: I hate Babies R Us. They didn't have this chair in the store and you can't use the 20% off coupons online! I was so annoyed. It seems like every time I try to shop there I have some kind of problem. They know that they (almost) have the market cornered for baby stuff so customer service is not a priority.

Okay back to the high chair. I can't believe he can sit in it at 3 months, but since it has a high back he does great. He sits with us at dinner now. Tonight he had his toy frog on his tray along with a plastic lemon and a plastic lime. He was entertained long enough for us to eat :) Thanks Melissa for recommending it!

think before you speak, people

I have to return to work in one month. I dread it more and more every day, but since I like having a roof over my head and food to eat I have to do it. Lately people, more specifically women, keep saying things like "have you thought about how hard it's going to be to go back to work" and "I couldn't leave my baby". What is the response they are looking to solicit? I usually just say, "well we have to eat". But seriously, what are they trying to do? Am I supposed to start crying on the spot? Do they think that I wake up each day thinking "only x many more days until I don't have to look at this baby all day"? Are they trying to imply that they somehow would be or were a better mother because they didn't or wouldn't work? I just don't get it. I think as an adult these ladies should know that it is going to be horrible to leave my baby for the first time and that it's not a polite topic to bring up. Just my opinion, what do other moms think?

And an update on the last topic of judgment I posted: sleeping. Last night Jackson slept, in his crib, from 9pm to 4:15 am. I did exactly the same things before bed that I have done every other day, I guess he was just tired. Or maybe he will treat us to the same thing again tonight.

2 months

Jax turned two months old on Monday. He went to the doctor to get his shots. It was awful. In reality he only cried for about 15 minutes and seemed to have forgotten the whole thing by the time we got home; but when the needle went in my baby's leg and that little blood droplet oozed out I almost cried. Luckily I held it together and just picked him up and patted his little back. He weighed 12 pounds and was 23 and a half inches long. That puts him in the 65th percentile for height and the 53rd for weight.








One Month Two Months

Since he is two months old I decided we should try letting him sleep in his own room so we could get more sleep. Yeah right, I think I was half awake all night worrying about him. His room shares a wall with ours and he is probably no more than 20 feet away when he's in there but I missed him! I had the monitor on the night stand listening for every breath. How did I become this person. I never thought I would be a worrying mom, I thought I would be "cool". Being a mom sure changes a person. Jackson did very well in his crib. He has been sleeping from 8pm to 3am but last night he got up at 1am, 3am, and 6am. I think that is pretty good for his first night in the crib. We'll see how tonight goes.

I also went bra shopping since I'll have to return to work in a few weeks and I don't think the nursing camisoles I have been wearing will be appropriate at work. Let's just say that my new bra size is not something I would have ever imagined buying. They are certainly nothing you would ever see a Victoria's Secret model wearing but not bad for nursing bras. Motherhood was having a sale, buy 3 get one free, so I ended up with 3 work bras and a sports bra for $60.

So many new adventures as a mom!

Jax's new hat

I just picked up this hat today, it still has the tag on in this photo, for Lizzy Beachum's soccer game on Saturday. I think he should be the Old Navy baby hat model!